So a few months ago I was feeling really low, I was anxious (I still am quite a lot) and every time I went into school I just felt really paranoid like people were talking about me or just looking at me all the time and I felt ashamed and embarassed and in all honesty I don't even understand why. I just felt so depressed, I went to my doctor and got referred for therapy which I'm starting on Wednesday. Well, after going to see a doctor I felt so much better, I was finally getting help and everything was going to be fine. It wasn't. Going into school was the reason I was depressed and anxious and so I came to a decision. I decied to leave the sixth-form I'm currently attending so I can start over and do A-levels. I'll be a year behind but I couldn't care less, I just want to do what's best for my wellbeing.

I'm planning to teach myself at home because going to a new school would make me feel the same way as I did at the sixth-form I was currently attending. I know it will be tough but I'm a fighter and I know I'll get through it and in the end I'll be happy. I promised myself I'd never regret any decisions I made in life and I'm going to keep that promise because I know that even if I won't be happy with this decision in the future I will know that it was the best thing for me to do at the time. I know my friends are upset and annoyed about me leaving and I will miss them but I have to think about myself and do what's best for my health because if I stayed in the place that was toxic to me I think I'd lose myself (I was already starting to) but I put a stop to it! Everyone experiences anxiety and depression in different ways and it really pissed me off when some people said to me 'you need to stay till the summer to get your qualification', the reason being is because they don't understand how I'm feeling, I have extreme hatred for that environment and I honestly couldn't stay. I don't care about letters on a piece of paper, what I care about is my health. People seem to forget about that, unless they went through what I went through they wouldn't understand how exactly I'm feeling and I would never wish for it to happen to them.

Love,

Sylwia

How To Get Away With Murder 

Ah how much I love this TV show! I don't even know what to say about it, all I can say is that if you haven't seen it, you're missing out! As you can guess by the title, the show is based on getting away with murder, I don't want to say too much just in case any of you guys decide to watch it. It's just so intense, it's full of drama and the acting is amazing! It's obviously not going to help you get away with murder but you'll have a killer time watching it ;)

Stalker 

I've only seen two episodes of this show because it just started airing in the UK two weeks ago but I am in love with it! It's as good as HTGAWM and it's just so intense. The actors fit well into their roles and it's just great to watch. I honestly didn't expect much from it but I'm impressed! The show focuses on detectives who investigate stalkers; I can't really say too much since I've only seen two episodes but I think the stories of the detectives will be developing through the series and I'm excited to see what happens!

Criminal Minds 

I'm pretty sure most of you probably heard of this TV show before, if not seen it. What can I say? I can re-watch an episode ten times and never get bored of it. It's been one of my favourite shows for a long time and I can assure you that I'm not going to stop watching it any time soon! The show is about a group of profilers (great actors btw!) who analyze criminal minds before they strike again. It's honestly a show worth watching!

Love,

Sylwia